Body Negativity

For as long as I can remember I have been ashamed of my body. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve also outwardly railed against the dominant narrative of body hatred in our culture. I consider it atrocious that women (and men) are goaded into aspiring to false ideals. I’ve spent hundreds of hours pep-talking girlfriends who…

Thinking Differently: Leaving the past behind

In some of my lists of goals from my past there are casual mentions of connecting more with family and friends, or focusing on forwarding my career, or developing my creative interests, but without fail the true measure of success always seems to come back to an arbitrary ‘ideal’ number on the scale.

Learning to Fall – Surviving a Lapse

Falls, or lapses, are part of life. Over time they may become less frequent, but they are the way we learn what our limits are, and when it’s ok to push them. Falling teaches us the confidence to get back up and try again, because the fall is rarely as bad as the threat of it seems.

Moderation Issues

I’m so sick of dieting. And thinking about dieting. Seriously, I have spent the last 32 years worrying about my weight. I’m only 38 so that gives you an idea of how long this obsession has lasted. I was a fat child, a chubby adolescent, a rapidly fluctuating 20-something and a periodically obese 30 something…

Reluctant Enlightenment

Meditation I have always been resistant to meditation. One reason for this is the overarching insistence that it is the ultimate modern panacea. Being goaded into breathing exercises and beach visualisation at conferences, training days and team meetings is enough to put one off the practice. I’m sorry but instant coffee and trans-fatty packaged pastries…

A Necessary Disconnect

I’m trying to work on disconnecting from my phone, specifically video games and social media. It’s not that I think either of these things are inherently bad, just that they seem to trigger an addictive response in my brain and I’ve learned that the more I engage with things that reward this response, the less…

Re-Connections

Late last year I started to suffer from burn out. I am a mental health occupational therapist,  yet I had been paying so little attention to my own mental health that I was teetering on the edge of a breakdown. It wasn’t just my mental health that was failing. I was self-medicating with alcohol and…